Do I really enjoy the things I'm doing? Do I really have the passion for my work? At times, I'm lost. I think sometimes I've lost my bearing in the mid of fufilling duties or meeting dealines.

Maybe it's the phase where one will get fed up with simply everything; but, not to the extent of hating everything. I think I've come here.

I know I just can't explain to anyone or expect others to understand my feelings. Maybe, it's time I have to do something different.

I always have this kind of feeling that I've to do something different, something that will excite me, something not so predictable; but, I can't make out clearly what I should do to make myself excited. Maybe partly it's because of the people around me. They are so predictable and not intellectually exciting. I know I can't be this honest to any of them. So, lately, I've withdrawn into my shell. Besides my routine meetings, I'll refrain myself from having any interation with anyone at all. Nobody is intellectually stimulating, so, I might as well be alone. Luckily, I don't feel lonely.

Maybe it's the capriconian nature in me that refuses to be sociable. I can be one if I want to, I know myself very well. But, I just don't feel like it.

I like to retreat into my own quiet world. Maybe I should go snorkelling or diving to enjoy the tranquility of the underwater world which I've missed; but, have no opportunity to do so now.